| already feeling it |
[08 Jun 2006|06:41am] |
my supposeded move is next week around monday or tuesday. Im really going to miss the usual routine that i picked up living with mike, but im pretty sure hes already sick of me and wants me out, so next week is a for sure. going to miss everybody since i wont see them everyday. Then again all there complaining will be out of my head.
if anyone wants to know, me mike and chad are working the gold coast dogs stand at the blues fest. its going on today thru sunday, drop by and chit chat.
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[08 May 2006|07:03pm] |
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today just hasnt been good for me. First off i think my g/f is pissed at me over the weekend(long story, dont want to go into it) then the rest just seems like its a bad day. In survey the estimated relantionships that are distant dont last, that hit me so hard like a ton of bricks, all this time im worring about losing my girl and its actually hurting the relationship. What do i do after high school, i move away from all my friends, girl friend, dont know what college is for me at this point, might not go right away. I know i have my liscence and all, but danni's still has 2 more years plus like 5 more of college, im not going to see her for the next 7 years, thats the fucking ton of bricks hammering me the gut.
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| what im going to do with my life?? |
[01 May 2006|10:28pm] |
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Its coming to the end of my high school career and im completetly lost in what i want to be when i get my diploma. Its been different everytime, game art designer, wrestler, at one point a bartender, and even a business tycoon. Which one is right for me?
This has been bugging me for qutie some time now. Im feeling overwhelmed that i might end up a bum with no life and lost dreams. I see back on my dad's accomplishments and i dont stack closely to it, he's a self made man, sure it took him years to achieve but he knew what he liked to do ever since he began high school. I see myself ending up like my mom, working at department stores the rest of my life. THats my biggest fear. Seeing how my mom failed, and how im going in that direction. Ive made too many poor choices and im paying for them. im just confused, where should i go? what will i become? will i succeed?
Another thing thats been haunting me has been my relationship. It's going to suffer when i move, im going to miss Danni so much, miss being there for her, miss cheering her up when she had a bad day or just didnt feel up to par to handle somethings. I keep getting these bad feelings that a guy is going to scoop her off her feet and then i lose the woman who ive loved since the end of junior year. Im going to stay faithful, but i hate the fact that she is going to be at school alone, with all those guys. and i found out a guy already likes her. when im gone i know he'll move in.
i love her so much every day, i want to be there for her, its just that i can't.....i dont want to lose her
LATER(not leaving on a good note, cant always have a happy post, now can i)
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[28 Apr 2006|04:12pm] |
today i got my Drivers lisence
WHOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO
i can legally drive now
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| uuuuuummmmmm beaver |
[15 Apr 2006|07:17pm] |
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today was alright, i went to my bros b-day party. Now im at one of the family friends houses for a BBQ. I really miss my babe. cant wait to see her sometime over this break.
in other news im off to the open house soon so if you want to come along then call me
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| pre-occupied |
[03 Apr 2006|10:13pm] |
hey yall, sorry havent updated but ive been occupied with myspace and bebo. I know im a myspace whore, but it passes the time, and im not emo, myspace is all happy go lucky so HA. ANd bebo is something my sis got me to sign up on, its like myspace but its easyer to blog.
Check it out- bebo.com
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P.S. WRESTLEMANIA WAS FUCKING AWSOME
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| To Danni |
[24 Mar 2006|08:30pm] |
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Babe im really sry about what happened. The phone died and i forgot your number which is y im addressing this to you cuz i know youll check it. You did go over the line when you sed thoose things, you know me better than that. I made a promise to you i wouldnt pressure you to ever do sexual things EVER. Im sorry i upset you, you know i love you and would never take advantage of you.
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[18 Mar 2006|11:39pm] |
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o god i feel like shit. head aches, bones hurt, and just feel hungover. Thats what i get for a night of fun, a day of pain to make up for it
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[14 Mar 2006|10:05pm] |
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this week has been great so far, im going to a play this friday, have a little drink for st. patties day, and just feel great
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| team chardog |
[28 Feb 2006|08:04pm] |
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this week is dragging like crazy. its only tuesday and i feel like i have a case of the mondays.(office space), dont know why i just cited a quote, thats how bored i am. Anyway, this saturday is the opening season of fish. Before that of course is game night. Cant wait, itll feel great to climb up on the god spot, throw shoes(not literally)and just have a great time which me, and about everyone needs. really considering mcdonalds, i hate the place so fucking much, but chad had a point it is money, the only problem would be scheduling. THe thing is i could only work wedsnday, friday, and the weekend. ya see not alot of hours and i need lots of greenand to all the chardogs. i apologize yet again, i know i come off as ungrateful but i trule appreciate all you guys do for me
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| gotta keep goin |
[25 Feb 2006|10:10pm] |
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there comes a time where you think you cant gone on with all of the shit life throws at you. For me its debt. to bally total fitness(assholes)and parking tickets on a car i sold last year and recieving tickets on it now. its fucked up. And to top it off my friends arnt really making this any easier. Joking about it and say shit behind my back isnt going to bring me out of my funk, it just marks you as a fucker who i thought was a friend but really doesnt know when stop fucking joking around. im worried about whats going to happen to me and none of friends seem to give a fuck. and if you thought diffrently then im sry, but this is how i see it.
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[23 Feb 2006|08:57pm] |
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why is there a myspace? i mean whoever made it must not be making money since it doesnt charge you to make an account, so whats the profit outta it. COme on the journal sells merchandise. o well thats me just thinking about worthless stuff. O god am i tired but im not. ive had this for weeks now. not much to report but that tomorow is really special and i want it to be perfect so if someone pisses me off tomorow ill either punch them or just not pay attention cuz ill be in that kind of mood.
i love you babe
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[21 Feb 2006|09:11pm] |
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When you dont have much to say, writing is hard. my day was pretty ok, late start and shorten periods because the gymnastics team won state. thats about the highlight of my day. hope this friday goes as i plan. the one who knows will like it.
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| the joys in life |
[20 Feb 2006|12:01am] |
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wow, yesterday was amazing. im surprized i even went the places i did. First of all lets rewind it back to friday where i visited my papi's place. Then at about 11 o'clock. my sister wanted to go to a college party, but not alone. So i decided to tag along. When we get there everyone is already smash drunk. Me being drug free and alchohal free, didnt have fun cuz a bunch of drunks were tring to get me to drink, finally i passed out from exhasution, and then woken up at 5 in the morning by two drunks fucking right next to me.
i know wild night and i wasn't even under the influence. After that little debouchery, we finally head back to my dads place for breakfast and shower. Later in the day went to visit my mom in ottowa, shes doin fine and was happy that i decided to vist her and the family on such a cold day. I left my moms place like an hour before things before the dance started(pictures,dinner,exc). Okay finally get to the dinner(Champs) everone already ate. didnt want to hold anyone up so i played the i already ate card(I was really pretty hungry) get to the dance and have the the best time ive had in a long time. in all a pretty great weekend and its still going on. no skool tomorow and late start tuesday.
til next time
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[15 Feb 2006|04:00pm] |
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favorite necklance broken. going to dance this saturday. and pretty much im in a neutral mood so nuthins on my mind
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| Valentines |
[14 Feb 2006|04:11pm] |
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hey everybody. Happy Valentines day. hope everyone had a great day cuz i sure as hell did. and danni i will beat you in sqauting, remember before i came to conant i was doin 140 and up. im gonna win.
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ps i love you so much danni, this day was perfect and i cant wait til this saturday. love ya
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| boring night |
[08 Feb 2006|08:52pm] |
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today was pretty mediocre, just went to skool, did the usual stuff, going to class, making out with the girlfriend then getting made fun of for it later. ya know the usual. its getting to be boring though, dont get me wrong i love kissing danni, and classes are interesting, but im just not in the greastest mood. I mean this is the last time ill ever be in a high school, after this is work and college. on a lighter note, today chad, mike, matt, and i played a huge gaming secssion. im talking first off with some fluxx. then we broke in some Munchkin, and finally we all played some Ninja Burger. zo my god, its a great game, i lost the whole game but it was still pretty fun. Now im just sitting at the compy all bored waiting for people to come on aim. just an average day in the life of spam
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[06 Feb 2006|03:59pm] |
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man today i felt like shit. dont know why, i was okay for the first part but after lunch i started feeling sick, not physically but my mind was all fucked up
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| Boredom of life |
[03 Feb 2006|10:15pm] |
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hey everyone, havent updated for a while so here goes. Skool has been pretty great, for once im tring and turning in my assignments. me and danni have never been closer and my life is pretty much on a roll. But for some reason im just not happy, maybe its my seperation from my family. i mean when my mom payed me a visit to drop off my tax return, i was a little emotional. seeing my mom brought my sprite back up, now im on my own and im feelin the blues, im going to need to get over this so the rest of the year doesnt seem long
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| YAAAWWWWWWWWWNNNNNN |
[27 Jan 2006|07:43pm] |
boy im tired. not much is up today. got no homework and im home on a friday, arent i just the loser.hehehehe, going to hang with steph this weekend, dont know what we're going to do maybe me along with the group will just go to game works, she needs friends and im probably one of her closest ones she needs right now, and then the rumble on sunday. HOORAY
LATER(almost forgot to say this, danni im alright i was just so happy in lunch cuz im with you and i love you, theres so much i want to say and i dont have enough words to desrcibe it, so ill sum it up i love you and i always will)
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